Alrighty so yesterday was Valentine's Day. It was a good day...rather than totally tripping and starving myself until dinner (which is what I've done in the past)...I made a point to eat regularly all day. I also went walking again with my sister at the mall earlier in the day. So once my boyfriend got home and was getting ready I asked him where he was thinking about us going. He said Olive Garden. Yeah so umm no. My face dropped! lol Of course he then explained he thought that's where I'd like to go. (Yes, true I did want to go to Olive Garden the day I attended my first WW meeting...as my "last meal"...but umm Olive Garden isn't the most healthy place ever. The salad alone is a day's worth of points...and I get damn 48 points!) Anyway so I said how about Applebees (not so romantic...but they do have a WW menu!) or a Japanese restaurant.
We ended up going with Japanese. I ordered the chicken and shrimp. It came with salad, onion soup, (a LOT) of rice, shrimp appetizer, veggie and of course the chicken and shrimp. Okay I DID eat the salad, onion soup and shrimp appetizer (2 grilled shrimp). As far as the meal went I half of the rice which I'd say is about a cup to a cup and a half and I ate half of my shrimp and chicken/veggies. I think I did really good. I am already nervous about the meeting Sunday. I really hope I didn't screw myself. HOWEVER...I want to say that I did very good if you ask me. I could/would normally eat all of my food. I've never been one for take out boxes. I really could have easily stuffed all that food...no joke. But I didn't. So I think this is a step in the right direction. I can't avoid going out to dinner all the time...nor can I cook dinner every, single night. I like going out...I like feeling special and dressing up. I had an awesome Valentine's Day. Oh yeah and when I came home I had about 1/2 of a glass of wine. I couldn't say no..my boyfriend lit candles...and poured it and it was so sweet. I haven't been drinking much at all...and I plan on not drinking much. However it was a good night...and I'm not going to lie and say I'm not concerned about Sunday...but it will be okay.
As a side note...UGH! I went to Lane Bryant yesterday just to try on clothes....how about I'm a fucking 26. I was hoping I was a 24. I don't wear pants...I feel too fat for pants. (sounds crazy...I know...but anyway...) I haven't worn pants in about 3 or 4 years. So I tried on a pair of pants...a 24 and I couldn't even fasten them. OMG! I mean close, but no cigar. WOW. So that means I started out wearing a damn 28...I'm now a damn 26....WOW. Double wow. I'm so ashamed at myself. Wow. I'm down almost 20 pounds and I'm a size 26. Unbelievable. For some reason I just assumed I STARTED at a size 26 and was now in a 24 again. WOW. Sigh. Well it's all good (I guess)....I'm losing weight. I'm just bummed. Wow. SMH.
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