Not Feeling Well

So majority of this week I haven't felt well. I have had stomach issues throughout the week. How? Why? I have no idea. But I have felt ultra bloated...have had increased trips to the restroom and I've been sipping pepto bismol all week. I pretty much have no hope at this point that weigh in Sunday will be good.

After work I am going for a walk with my sister at the mall again. I do need to exercise. We walked Sunday and Monday...so a third day will be awesome. I need all the help I can get as far as weight this week. My period starts next Thursday so I don't know if that has anything to do with it...I doubt it. But I do feel sorta blah. I'm typing this just to mentally prepare myself for disappointment Sunday. Well not necessarily disappointment...just not a big loss, if any at all.

I did get the chance to cook anything new this week. I've been pretty broke b/c so I couldn't purchase any cool, new ingredients. I do however plan on making oven fried chicken, chicken marasla as well as garlic shrimp this week/weekend. We'll see how it goes though.

I am so very stressed though lately. I'm dealing with some nonsense with my dad ever since my mother passed away in August. I am just stressed over the whole thing. My father moved a woman into the house in December. Yeah...exactly. My mother died in August and he moved a woman in just a few months later. How does that make any sense? I'm just too through. I'm so depressed...I cry all the time. I'm trying to get past it...but I can't take it. I feel like my life is seriously one big clusterfuck and I can't fix it. I realize I can't worry about grown people...but this whole situation turns my stomach. Just typing this makes my stomach hurts. SIGH.

I never mentioned that I gained even more weight after my mom died in August. And not only have I been mourning her...but dealing with my dad living with this woman...oh did I mention the woman was one of my mom's nurses?? Yeah...the story gets worse and worse. It's seriously so fucked I can't even think straight. I mean this dude (my dad) is on some brand new shit right here. SIGH

I am just going to try not to think about it....honestly b/c if I do I am bound to jump in the car and go to McDonald's. And yeah I know I'm emotional eater...I haven't and I don't plan on it...but yeah this sort of situation is taking a toll on me. I'm just so tired right now...so very tired. Wow, I just rambled on so much.......I am just ready for this week to be over. I'm tired of not feeling well. I'm tired of going to a shitty job at 3:30AM...I'm just tired. I need a vacation. I'm just saying...