Update Time!

Okay, so it's been over a week since I have updated...wow I suck. Well I just wanted to come on here and say I am still doing well. I love myfitnesspal and the fact that I am counting calories. I love that I am accountable for EVERYthing I eat. Honestly I don't really miss WW that much. I felt like after a while I was "cheating" the system which is why I wasn't really losing weight for a bit. I mean I wasn't intentionally cheating the system...but I was doing it and I realize it now. As of this past Sunday I am now down 83.4 pounds. WOOT! I have been walking at least 4 days a week recently though it has been raining here a lot lately so it has been kinda of tough but I'm not letting that stop me. I really love just going for a walk...putting on Pandora and just clearing my head. I've had a lot of drama in my life recently and I do need that time. It really sucks that I have pretty much lost all of my weight loss support in my life...but I do have myfitnesspal. The people on there are really nice and I appreciate the feedback. No one has ever really commended me on my weight loss. I've lost over 80 pounds and you mean NO one has noticed? I mean geez, thanks. It's all good. I am not doing this for compliments...but it would be nice every now and then to hear. My husband did send me a random text the other day saying I was looking really good lately. It really did make my day. Today they are having food at work to celebrate a good sweeps period and I honestly just can't eat anything. I don't even want to go and put myself in that position to WANT to eat anything I see. I'm really not one for avoiding situations because of food as it isn't something I can do for the rest of my life...however Saturday night I am going out to dinner (my fav. restaurant...The Melting Pot) and I know I will be eating quite a bit there...so why do it twice in one week. That's not very smart. So for lunch today I have a huge yummy salad, watermelon and some yogurt. Yum! It's so hard being the "fat chick". No one really understands what it's like to have a constant inner battle with food. My fight is daily...hell hourly. And you know what? I'm fine with that. I am going to have to make a conscious effort to not over eat and to think about what I'm eating for the rest of my life...and it is what it is. I mean I have to be aware of how much money I spend...I have to be aware of a lot of things in life...so food is just another one. Well that's my LONG update. Until next time! -A
Birthday update: I FIT inside the car!!! I was soooo scared but I was able to fit in the go cart and it was awesome! I also didn't over eat tooo bad. I mean I DRANK more than anything. But it was cool I haven't had much to drink in forever so yay! It was a fabulous birthday. I must make plans to make my lovely husband's birthday AWESOME too!