Weigh In #I have no idea

I gained .6. I was sooooo pissed. I mean PISSED. I ate what I was suppose to eat...not binging...no eating anything crazy. And I got up early 3 days this week and worked out. Hmph! That's some bull. It's all good, I have now dusted myself off and moved on. As of today I have worked out twice. I left the meeting and went to the gym and this morning I worked out. I am up to 20 mins on the elliptical. I would also like to increase my weight lifting. Nothing crazy...but hopefully it can help tone my arms for my wedding dress...hell and just in general. Well that's my update. Nothing much to tell. I gained. Sigh.

Oh yeah so this week I am going to track closer and be a bit more vigilant. I am also going to try to increase my water. Also I will still be working out as usual. At least 3 days...perhaps even 4, fingers crossed on that.

Weigh In

WOOT! So I had weigh in Sunday and I lost 2.2. OH SNAP! I haven't lost over 1.6 pounds in MONTHS at one weigh in. I guess exercise is a good thing. Who knew??! lol Yeah I'm super excited! Oh and guess what I did?? I purchased several pairs of capris from Lane Bryant...I haven't worn pants in many years so I'm thrilled! Oh and guess what?? I can wear a size 20! WOOT!

Day 2 Week 1 C25K

Okay so I got up about 30 minutes earlier than usual and I did my day 2 week one of the couch to 5k. OMG first of all I'm so tired right now at work it's not even funny. I'm not so much in pain at this point as I am tired. Every once in a while I'll feel a bit of pain on the front of my thighs...but I'm not too bad at this point. I'm glad I opted to get up and do it...but DAMN I'm tired. When does this extra burst of exercise energy kick in? Isn't there a such thing? I hear people say it all the time...when you exercise you feel better the rest of the day...have more energy...blah blah. Where is that ENERGY?????? I want it now!!! lol Oh well it's okay. So this morning rather than going to the park and running on a trail (in which I was scared to death of getting lost and MURDERED) I opted to jog/walk at my apartment complex. I chose to run at the tennis courts...which is larger than I thought. It's a double full size court. So it worked out well. I would run in the apartment complex itself but I'm too self concious. I'm not sure what I'm going to do Friday as I have to work an overnight shift so I can't get up early before work and jog. Perhaps I'll get off (UGH I'm going to be tired as hell) go to the gym and do it on the tredmill. The concern about doing it outside is by the time I get off from work it will be HOT outside. I get off at 1pm. SIGH. So yeah I might just do that. I don't want to slack and give up all within the first week. So yeah day 2 of week 1 down. I'm tired...I hurt...and hell no it's not easy.

Couch To 5K - Exercise Plan

Okay so as of yesterday I have started the Couch to 5k. EEEK! I'm excited...yet I'm kinda of apprehensive. Why? B/c I'm afraid of failure. I thnk it's kind of crazy to work so hard at eating well, but to not exercise as I should. I don't really have a goal of running a 5k...my goal at this time is just to get moving. I love walking and I think it's about time I stepped it up to jogging/running. I feel that the Couch to 5k is a good to get a regimented way of going beyond walking without (hopefully) overwhelming myself or hurting myself. So how did day one go yesterday? Ahh...well I went to a park on a walking trail and did it. I must first say I was totally freaked at the idea b/c I didn't want to get murdered or anything. Hey, the world is full of crazy people who target women in parks. Anyway...so I was a bit concerned...and I didn't want to get lost. On top of that it seemed that every time I had to run (week 1 there are 60 secs of running followed by 90 secs of walking intervals)...I was going uphill. UGH! So tomorrow when I do it I am going to do it at my apartment complex. I don't WANT people to see me...but I will be doing it early in the morning...so hopefully it won't be too strange. I downloaded several podcasts to help me. I like the podcasts...they are hip-hop music...and it's nice. So yeah. Oh yeah I didn't weigh in this past Sunday. I opted to pass on that. I have been getting very discouraged lately with the lack of scale movement. So instead I just passed and I'll be going this next Sunday. I don't feel bad for not going...hell if it helps me mentally prepare myself for starting a new exercise regime...then it's all good. Also I purchased 3 pound hand weights that I'll be doing on my days "off" from running so this is my current schedule:

Monday - C25k
Tuesday - Free Weights
Wednesday - C25k
Thursday - Free Weights
Friday - C25k

Saturday/Sunday days off...maybe a bit of mall walking on Sundays, but not required. :)


Well there you have it...I'm here to say it's on! I need to lose more weight...and tone up. It's a must...so this is the start to something great! (I hope).

*side note: I am doing this ON MY OWN. I am not "waiting" for anyone to do it with me...nor am I hoping by some miracle that my support system (which is NULL at this point) will magically decide to help me. I got "fat" on my own...I can lose weight on my own. *end of rant*

Checking In...

Wow so it's been over a month since my last post...wow! Yeah it's crazy. But guess what? I haven't gained weight. I have actually lost! My weight loss total right now is 61.4. Of course I wish it was more...but my weight loss has slowed down significantly. Why? B/c I suck. lol Well maybe not suck...b/c if I suck I would be gaining weight, right? Let's just say I haven't been doing all I should. I haven't been working out like I should...and I haven't been tracking my food like I should. Such a shame. I really need to work our harder b/c guess what?? I purchased a wedding gown! Yay! It's a size 24 (ugh)...but at this point I actually wear (in regular clothing) a size 20. Formal clothing tends to run a bit smaller...so it's all good. I still need to get the gown altered b/c it still doesn't fit properly (it's a bit too big!)...so in a few months I'll do that. I hope to be able to maximize my weight loss and have the dress taken in a lot more. I need to focus on my arms. They are HUGE! I've always hated my arms...and they are terrible in size. I mean I'm thankful to have arms...but sheesh they are huge. So when I get paid Friday I am going to invest in some weights...oh yeah and USE them.

So yeah that's about it. I'm trying to do the wedding planning thing. Though I'm doing pretty good at this point. I have my dress and venue, dj, photog and flower vendors booked. The only things left really are get the tuxes, maid of honor dress and get a cake. Not bad for 8 months out! I want to take engagement pictures soon also. Perhaps next month.

Oh yeah so I went to an amusement park not too long ago. Maybe 2 weeks ago. I haven't been in several years b/c...well I've been too fat. Well the results were...I could fit on all but 2 rides. Of course the 2 rides are the biggest, newest, best rides...but nope, couldn't fit. It's as if they are making new rides smaller. Egh. It sucks...ok, it REALLY sucks....but no worries b/c I'll be on it next year and that's a promise. F-this. It was embarassing to not be able to fit...but luckily they have seats outside the ride so you can "test" if you fit. I guess they know they made the seats ultra small. I mean how messed up is it that a woman who wears a size 20 can't ride a ride? I mean dang. Oh well to me a size 20 isn't huge...but it isn't small...so I GUESS I get it. Oh well...there is always next year. And trust me next year come hell or high waters my ass will be riding EVERYTHING!

Well that's my update. Still around. Still plugging along on the weight loss train.

- Me