Time Out!

Okay, so this is a late post...I am posting on Thursday when I should have on posted on Tuesday. Anyway so this week I have had a stomach flu. I am still feeling the effects at this point. FOUR days later. I had to take 2 days off from work...it's been pretty awful. However I did weight 320.0 this morning. I'm not officially weighing in b/c of my illness...but I did want to check in. I haven't been able to eat that much lately so though I'm glad the scale as moved I know it's not "healthy" weight loss and it's likely to come back....so yeah. But did want to check in!

One Week Down...

Okay, so one week down and the results are in....325.4. That's a pretty good loss for week one. I mean everyone knows week 1 and probably 2 are going to see big numbers b/c it's water weight. I've been on enough modified/weight loss plans to know that. However I'm still quite proud of myself. I am even more proud of the fact that I am not only working on weight loss but I am working on myself in general. I have given myself a (much needed) pedicure and I have purchased some makeup (which I will be in practice mode for a bit). I want to make an all around change for the better. I have been neglecting myself and that's just not good at all. I need to make sure I'm improving myself inside...out...weight...non-weight.

I've been giong through so much mentally lately that it's taking a toll on me. I can't let family drama and stress do this to me. I will win. My mom always wanted me to better myself...and I want to also. So not only and I doing this for me...I'm doing this for my mom. I can do this. I will do this.

Striving To Be Average Day 1

As of today I am restarting my commitment to losing weight. It has been a rough year, but I can do this. I am currently weight 331 pounds and I am so disappointed in myself. I am still 4 pounds less than where I started in January, but that is still pretty bad since the death of my mother 8/9/10. I was on Weight Watchers from January up until my mothers death...though admittedly I was starting to falter already. However once my mother died I found food as my comfort. Any and everything has been put in my mouth.

However as of today I am done with all of that crap. I can't continue along this path. It's now or never. This little spot will be my sanctuary. I need someone to talk to...and this is where I will do that.

As of now I will be doing WW online and just simply eating less and exercising. I can do this.

Striving to be average? Yes, I strive to be the average size of an American female, which is supposedly a 14/16. Hell I'll even take a 20 at this point. So anyway, here I go....